Diary 03 April 06 - Brother is back`

Brother came home and stayed overnight til tis morning. Loitering around in the living room all night along, with no private space of his own in this house any more.

He is no longer my brother I used to know, whom I used to play and mingle wif. We hardly speak, not even a word within these few years. I dun know why, I dun know what had drifted us apart. Perhaps of different family brought up or perhaps of the sufferings and pains he had undergone` I dun really know why`

And he seems to be drunk, and kept drinking beer yesterday. Dun know know what had happened but think god is not fair to him. I dun know and I am in no position to comment. For God himself will know and decide the fate of mankind. But can... can Man overwrite it?

Drunk and making a lot of noise from night to dawn. Very noisy that I hardly sleep well` In the morning when I was half awake by the noise he made again, he had an excuse saying to mum that he was dun know tired or what shit and went out to purchase breakfast for the family.

And myself, I am a bit out rejecting the share of breakfast he brought for me. But indeed I was really rushing for time to the other side of the island for some IPPT Trial conducted by ship. Reflecting back, I should have take the pack and decided after which.

No doubt how bad he maybe, no doubt how not close we maybe, he still cares for this family and treats us as family. For the blood that flows within our bodies are of no difference`