All good things will come to an end` Yishun anyone`

The essential element is to let go, to depart... However, it is always easier said than done where letting go itself isnt as simple as it seems to be. Although it maybe a one simple step kinda of thingy, but it takes a lot of courages and efforts to do so. And for sure, this may involves feelings, efforts and/or relationship that one had undergone to attain certain achievements.

All good things will come to an end`

Indirect voices from a third party`

I was sadden that my good friend is somehow losing her position in a particular organisation... Due to upper management decision, this organisation was reshuffled tremedously and perhaps leaving no place for her to stand...

Despite her vast experiences in this organisation, and also being one of the veterans and key appointment holder, the upper management could have discuss wif her or worst case, simply inform her in advance before executing the plan. This had worsen the tense relationship between the organisations and had really caught my friend in surprise, being sandwich between the upper and lower management... Now she is taking one step at a time.

For being in such insensitive organisation, I can onli advise her to tender her resignament and seek better opportunities out there...

Words and Music = LiDeBoi BLOGGY

If you sae this blog is very 'chiam-mi-ology', I can onli replied wif a courteous smile for the simple words I used to express my thoughts touches one s heart...

If you sae the sound from my blog sucks, I would sae it s just music where there is a distinguish difference between music and noise`

And for myself, this blog features my views towards life... For a simple guy who longs for a simple life, who is pursuing his life, trying very hard to survive in this society... A guy who is learning to love himself more than loving others... for he is still in search of true love`

Hoping to dot down every significant thing that happen from point to point...

CB BFR

The Coffee Bean Blackforest Regular Blended Beverage must have taken its effect otherwise I wouldn t be blogging at this hour` Nothin much, nothin less... Simply can t get to sleep, had been flipping for a hour or so` Is there any solution to address this problem? Think I will be a panda later` a long day to go...

Quick Review of Goals & Activities to Accomplish

1) Music lessons
2) Cartoon Course
3) Training for IPPT => Slim Down
4) CENTRINO Test
5) Buy MP3 Player - Nano / Shuffle / Creative`
6) MLR
7) Simulate thinking process thru SUDOKU
8) Improve ENGLISH thru BLOGGING

Addicted to SUDOKU`

Knew this thingy thru the newspaper TODAY`

I have been playing this game almost every now and then between meals, rest time, waiting or queuing time` ever since I purchased the book worth $15 odd dollars from kinokumiya Bookstore... Sounds aggretating or perhaps it s one of my three-minutes fever again` I thought it is kinda of troublesome and not worth certain $$$ investment of taking train daily so I can get one game per day via the free newspaper... Thus I had make this $15 odd dollars investment`

I think it is quite a worth as it allows the brain to think and teaches one to be able to look at things from various angles. And seriously speaking I had not been thinking thoroughly since I join this organisation... Indeed this is a simple game that reflects how one should approach and survive in this society full of predators. I do not mean to be a predator but just avoid being the prey`

Onli the strongest out of the mighest survives`

Give it the best shot`otherwise sit back and relax

Many people had asked why had I chosen this as my career. I smiled and replied wif one standard answer, "Cos I like the sun, the sand and the sea." An extracted from the famous commerical gimmick...

However the truth is, I dun even know the exact answer` Was the reason (1) to escape from National Service or (2) attractive sum of $$$ or (3) lost and confused regarding what occupation to take up... Perhaps simply refused to work in an engineering environment esp in Jurong Islands as Thermal Fluid Asst Engger or some CAD/CAM designer elsewhere...

Remember back in polytechnic days, I had even walked in for the POLICE recruitment drive in Thomson Road. And I had withdrawn after the medical checkup which was just before the final interview, I suppose the reason was this career wasnt as promising as I thought of... and do not wish to be bonded by any contract...

But now, I dun know. I am bonded by the organisation` Probably I was easily convinced by some sweet n persistent HRs... Moreover, I believed that these three reasons mentioned earlier each plays a convincing role to the occupation I am in today, this very day at least`

Anyway, I had not regretted it so far except wif some curses and swears during poor sea states. My motto: To live life wif no regrets and whatever I do, give it the best shot` Wan to do, do the best, otherwise sit back and relax...

Transforming emotions into kinetic energy`

I suppose what s past is history and one should not brood over it too much` One must look forward and strive for the future. Transforming emotions into kinetic energy. And no doubt, it is easier said than done... Let mi get down to something concrete;

1) CENTRINO TEST 06 - 80% (kinda of ambitious, try ahz...)
2) IPPT - SLIVER by wk2 May 06`
3) Slim down to 60kg and get rid of tummy (LOLz... ... ...)
4) Hope to meet someone whom I can live wif for the rest of my life`

To be loved is better than to love someone`

She appeared... Tis gal was much younger than my galfriend and I... Although she didnt spell out that she was fond of mi... her friends did... She had many unnecessary worries, just to name one in particular, is to lose mi as a friend upon being rejected. Urghhh... Dun know what to say...

And despite her friends knowing that I am attached, they even accused mi of being so insensitive to her feelings... I was then at a total loss, didnt breathe a single word to my galfriend and optioned to be silence, pretending not to know a single thing... pretending nobody had come to mi before... until that night when I saw her home`

It was on one moonless night, I remembered clearly somehow... She, my galfriend and I went out together wif one huge group of people... Couldnt exactly remember where we went to or for what events we went out for as the three of us have very few common friends... It was rather late then, close to midnight... Thus, my galfriend and I offered to accompany her home by foot since her house is not far away from my galfriend's or the interchange... This is also the normal practise how I send my galfriend home.

We chat and laugh, but I didnt really talk to her... because I can feel the auguishment she is releasing on the way home` I tried to be myself but I was uncertain whether had I... That was the time I think I hurt her the most... Or perhaps that was what I thought...

Reflecting about this, I think if I wasnt attached then, we maybe together regardless of the age differences.

And now, I guess she is leading her life better...

If memories fade, will love still stay?

It has been like this for several nights... several nights of emptiness and loneliness. I didnt know what to do nor what s the appropriate approach... However, one question kept pondering my mind profusely is that if memories fade, will love still stay?

I wonder has fate played a trick on us? Or had we simply met too early?

Till now, I still remembers every single moment we spent together... And whenever she s on msn, I dun know what to do. I felt like committing an idotic or coward act like digging a trench and bury my whole self in there or even hiding under my bed, hoping that she doesnt see me online. Internet - MSN - so virtual . . . I am at a total loss...

Our love slogan: Always and Forever, But to think again, love is blind and that s really a naive thought: Nothing, simply nothing is forever... Uncontrolled emotions from the heart` I never felt it so strong.

And it isnt because of this, then I started to BLOG... I guess, but I guess I must admit that it s mainly because I am bored and I just want to vet my feelings, my emotions out. To broadcast it to the whole world, not to look at mi in a pathetic way and I also do not wish to talk about it at all. And I promise not to hide anywhere if she learns about this BLOG...

If memories fade, will love really still stays?