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Saturday, April 29, 2006

Kaizen

he had evaporated from the earth... Reborn` Kaizen

Kaizen is a Japanese management term referring to continuous improvement. 'Kai' means change, 'zen' means good. The same Japanese words Kaizen that pronounce as 'Gai San' in Chinese means:

Gai= The action to correct.

San= This word is more related to the Taoism or Buddhism Philosophy in which give the definition as the action that 'benefit' the society but not to one particular individual. The quality of benefit that involve here should be sustain forever, in other words the 'san' is and act that truly benefit the others.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Diary 25 April 06 - Complains of Boredness

There s seems to be nothing, practically nothing for mi to do every night`

Logging onto the internet is like a normal routine just to check emails, chat wif friends and then stared at the msn window, watching them to come online and then go off, read their display messages and so on. It is rather meaningless. However it has become part of my life...

I questioned myself why am I doing this? Is it really because of nothing to do? Or is it because of other factors? To date, I seriously have no idea, and I am lost, real lost in the virtual world.

In search for an answer... ... ...

Diary 24 April 06 - Examination fever soon...

Had obtained the M05 notes... And discovered that there will be lots of reading to do... very theoritical, very dry. Looks like back to some examination studying sessions again... sian-max`

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Diary 22 April 06 - Lazy day`

Nothing in particular to blog... had wasted one afternoon sleeping... Not that I am tired but just nothing to do, hence I had taken an afternoon nap...

Now fresh at night, perhaps can do some packing and cleaning aka spring clean... LOLz`

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Diary 18 April 06 - Pass IPPT

Ahhh... had passed IPPT today but think it isnt good enough. Must obtained at least a SLIVER` However, despite no SLIVER, I am already satifisated with my result liao. Nevertheless, under "x" circumstances, I had left with no other alternatives but to strike for a SLIVER.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Diary 17 April 06 - Sandals & M05 Papers

Today is SR`

Had purchased a pair of expensive and good quality sandal or rather slippers, whatever that is called or how you will define which is which. But that is not important. I thought for a while and asked myself whether is it a need or want? Why do I think of this... Remember I am saving $$$. And soon I had concluded that it is neither nor... it is something that I would wear daily and given the x amount of days, it is worth. Although it is very difficult to determine what s the x amount of days before it is spolit. Nevertheless, I guess it is just another excuse to spend $$$...

Had also met up wif Qide and had arranged for the M05 Papers date.

Nothin much, Nothin less... ... ...

Life as a Regular - Bonded for Life`

Signing on` for life instead of career

With dreams and hopes, I marched into the Police Academy alone during one of the walk-in Recruitment Drive. I had successfully went through various interviews and medical check-ups.

Meanwhile, I had also spoken to my seniors, who are in the force and they had shared the insider views. I was astonished and ... Prior to the contract signing session, I was AWAKE to measured the pros and cons before committing myself to this 5 yrs or so career. I had asked myself what do I really want in life, I had asked myself what do I want to purse in life... Thoughts of a young and naive boy who is exposed to the real world for the very first time.

I told myself not to sign on as a Police Officer or the Armed Forces but ... ... ... And now I do not want anyone else I know to follow my footsteps.

He is now a regular Police Officer`

I had shared my experiences & knowledge, and weighted the pros & cons through numerous sessions with him.

Today, despite how much I had said, he had entered National Service as a regular Police Officer. I guess as much, To each on his own. Perhaps, being a police officer is someone whom he looked upon to be when he was younger. An ambition is what s that calls. And that s probably or even perhaps clearly explains the rationale why he had joined NPCC during both his secondary and polytechnic days. For an ambition that lives in him, for a dream he longs to possessā€¦ for him now a man who will live life with no regrets.

We had communicated on msn earlier. And I had discovered that he is no longer the guy I used to know, but someone whom had grown up and learnt about the way of life. He had shared about the discomfort and amusing moments in his short first 2-3 days in the service. And I must say it is indeed a bit too happening for a start like mustering in the mid of his bath, early morning exercise before breakfast and more. But these are what every boy will undergo during National Serviceā€¦ where boys transform into young men.

My National Service days

I recalled my National Service days. Although it was a short span of time before I signed on as what I am today, it was rather memorable.

There are many first times during my term of service such as first time missing home despite of attending many school camps before, first field camp, first time showering in the jungles, misplaced my rifle cleaning kit in the jungle, water issues with another platoon, shooting test and more.

Back to the Start` On the day of enlistment, I felt depressed reporting to camp without the company of my family members. It was on a weekday. Just before I leave home, I bid farewell to mum and had hidden my tears to the back of my weary eyes. I felt that It was like the end of the world, where I am uncertain will I get back home in one piece, will I be endure or die from the training and more. On the journey to the island, I could see other enlistees with their family members. Of course, a minority was like mi, all alone.

Sometime later, on the parents visiting day, mum and dad came and brought many food. I was touched and realized that love is still around and they had remembered my existence. We had spend a happy moment then, rather short, an hour or so I recall. Then, I supposed it was the one and only activity during my National Service term they had attended. Or rather in fact not many activties for them to attend to.

Several characters and incidents etched in my memory, lasting for a lifetime. And if time persists and circumstances allows, I will record every single incidents that I can still recall.

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And that marks the end of this term, leading to the next chapter of an exciting seaward life.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Diary 16 April 06 - Planning for Future

There re no significant events happening these days... Life seems to be petty normal, too normal to be true. I am uncertain whether is this right or not` Slacking too much...

Guess I got to seriously get down to something productive for my future` There are several issues I need to handle first:

1) Save $$$ - Must save as much as possible and refrain from buying all sorts of stupid gadgets. Must understand what is need and want.

2) Image - Get a metallic strip watch and nice sandal soon` Others like Sling bag for jalan jalan, Polo T-shirts and accessories like braclets can wait.

3) Slim Down - Nothing much, nothing less... just exercise loh... Many people had commented that I am expanding liao, die ah. One Stone hit 2 birds => IPPT

4) BGR - FATE`

5) 2nd Career - Dun know lei... Perhaps bank insurance agent? Just perhaps... I dun know...

Friday, April 14, 2006

Diary 14 April 06 - Voices from the mind

On the boring evening of the Good Friday, or rather lonely Friday evening, from 2-3 friends onli to twenty odd people online... so sianz

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Diary 12 April 06 - Damien comments on my CENTRINO Test results

Actually I am very affected by what Damien said today. He is Someone whom is my senior, someone whom I respect wholeheartly for his vast experiences in both technical and operational aspects, someone who I believes think highly of mi, and someone who I cares about mi. Hmm...

I kept pondering again` Is it really FWP or other issues? Had really tried my very best within the short span of time to really study.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

MGB Duty

Sianz... duty onboard P80 (in yard) as POOD... cos all the boats went out sailing for AATTS. Boring sia`

CENTRINO Test Results

Hmmm... amazed and surprised that I had done fairly okie onli for the test. Had scored 75% and exempted from the second test for the year` 4 days of continous study onli. But given a chance again, I will study beforehand much earlier.

This time round, I suppose it is FWP that hinder my time to study, everyday OT for FWP leaving office earliest at 7pm and latest at 10pm++. But I suppose this is no excuse. Thus whatever the case is, regardless what is going to happen before next CENTRINO Test, I will study much in advance.

Three cheers for CENTRINO Test 06``` Hip hip yurahhh...

Monday, April 03, 2006

Diary 03 April 06 - Brother is back`

Brother came home and stayed overnight til tis morning. Loitering around in the living room all night along, with no private space of his own in this house any more.

He is no longer my brother I used to know, whom I used to play and mingle wif. We hardly speak, not even a word within these few years. I dun know why, I dun know what had drifted us apart. Perhaps of different family brought up or perhaps of the sufferings and pains he had undergone` I dun really know why`

And he seems to be drunk, and kept drinking beer yesterday. Dun know know what had happened but think god is not fair to him. I dun know and I am in no position to comment. For God himself will know and decide the fate of mankind. But can... can Man overwrite it?

Drunk and making a lot of noise from night to dawn. Very noisy that I hardly sleep well` In the morning when I was half awake by the noise he made again, he had an excuse saying to mum that he was dun know tired or what shit and went out to purchase breakfast for the family.

And myself, I am a bit out rejecting the share of breakfast he brought for me. But indeed I was really rushing for time to the other side of the island for some IPPT Trial conducted by ship. Reflecting back, I should have take the pack and decided after which.

No doubt how bad he maybe, no doubt how not close we maybe, he still cares for this family and treats us as family. For the blood that flows within our bodies are of no difference`

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Looks of a person - Internal and External

Yesterday, I saw an average or below average looking secondary school boy at the bus stop. Why I did I comment his looks? His face is something like mo-pin, meaning wif uneven face? Dun really know how to describe. But that s not the main point.

We were sitting on the different benches at this bus stop. Then came an old man standing in betweeen both benches, awaiting for the bus.

To my surprise, the boy actually offered his seat to the old man. Despite of all available seats, I think this boy had done something very meaning and I felt ashamad of myself.

Regardless how one looks, it is vital to have the heart, the virtue. It s all within oneself. I used to have that, but now I had somehow lost it.

Thoughts after taking the CENTRINO TEST

Hmmm... if you were to ask how had I fair for the test, I would say I am least confident in achieving the target set by the superiors (95%), exemptation from the 2nd test (75%) and even to simply pass, barely a pass. This is indeed my worst attempt to date` What are the causes? What could be the causes? Is it because of that thought or ...

It is not that I didnt know the stuffs nor do not have sufficient time to memorise all the stuffs. I really dun know because many many many new questions looked alien to mi.

Past years (less last year in school no exempted), I had produced impressive results and made a name from the test. But today, a laughing stock? I suppose I had overlooked and underestimated the paper. Not making enough effort to even read further more` or is it the problem of knowledge sharing / management wif HOS. Likewise I didnt share my notes wif him this time round. Thus I suppose the fault lies within oneself and nobody else. And blame no one`

Say no more and await for results...